Define Hard

This came up on my IG feed. It’s been on my mind the last few days. I agree with it all but wondered if it was too harsh of a statement.

Three days later and it still on my mind I have to agree with it 100%. After my back injury I blew up with toxic weight from prednisone. To me I was overweight. Near what I weighed the days I has my babies! That was a huge shock! Being big was hard. It affected my self esteem daily. I would find I’d stay and hide in my house. I didn’t like being in my own skin.

Deciding to loose weight was easy but the process, very hard! I got off all meds and was in so much pain. But I didn’t want to give up. I hires a coach and just did it. It took a long time to be comfortable in the skin I was in.

Steeping on stage was huge and my weight was less than my high school weight. I loved how I looked and couldn’t believe what I saw in the mirror.

Stage weight isn’t realistic to walk around every day. So after competing it’s hard. Or it was for me. I kept asking myself, “What’s my normal?” I was so used to seeing the toxic me nearly 60lbs heavier. The idea of gaining even 5-10 lbs was devastating.

Having healthy ideas of what “normal” is is SO important. Don’t loose sight of what a healthy weight is. Love the skin you’re in and keep striving to be be best you no matter what stage of the gameyou’re in.

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